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Saturday, February 7, 2009, 1:08:00 AM
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sometimes i recalling back to the pastthe past of my life where there's a lot of things happened which are peaceful than now can u give me a time machine to go back to the past i know it is impossible i regret what can i do nothing but to carry on with life if u think i was the care-free person u ever seen think again u sure i dont have any problems i wasn't the past me anymore the person who hack care, solve problems, and live happily everyday live to the fullness i was the person which have a lot of problems now all the problems seem to be charging at one at one shot i cant breathe not even with the inhaler or oxygen been given to me i cant hack care everything and pretend eveything never took place before cause it is a form of escape YES ESCAPING i am escaping everything now i dont want to face it the school dont let me do it my teachers dont allow (some of u knows what it is) where is demoractic in this world in singapore what is called human rights its suck TOTALLY to HIM (someone in the class) last year you said that i dont have any friends u go and think clearly how many friends do i actually have after the incident took place at 6 years ago i had already decided not to keep so many friends as i know they will one day backstab u so i DARE to say that my friends in this class is not so many now but they are those reliable friends which i made not like u, use some other rubbish thing to make friends they will not be ur trueful friends in the end tell me why do u have so many friends when one day they will backstab u or u backstab them tell me why u dont want to know them more before making them as ur friends when they backstab u u will cry thinking back why 'i' trust 'him' so much why no use crying over it if crying can solve this and that i would cry over everything every problem i face because it is no use just face it know them wisely before making them as friends u wont regret i have friends in THIS class only aloy, naufal, rauf, nadiah, theron, bo hui, zhong wei, guan hao. the rest are just classmates to me they dont affect me much i dont care them unless they did something to me which i know who if u did something behind my back include talking bad about me i telling u this dont let me have a chance to get back on u u will surely get more than what u gave me i will surely give u what u deserve i am not a good person to be pushed around with if u think i am noisy in class think again my words came out from my mouth is to make my friends laugh more cheerful unlike urs to irritate people only u know what u ARE the REAL noisy perosn in there althought my ffriends complain that i am noisy but did they laugh did they smile thats what i doing thats my purpose in it think after all only my friends know me more the most is my 8-9years friend, RAUF what for with so many friends when they will stab u i will definatly laugh at u u suck i would really want to go back to the past and walk the journey all over again not to escape from my own problems to solve be the same old me again when i was in primary sch but i know one day i will grow up i will change change to another person not to the old me again so what sometimes it is good to be old-self than new-self right u may say i am childish but if u really go think about it u might agree with me why cant i go back and walk all over again i really regret i had already regreted for 8 years i want to put a STOP to everything now i am not strong anymore one strong wind blow i will be blown off i wont be like last time still standing there strongly i am weak now maybe what i can do now is to stop being so perssismistic get a-long with it i will find a better day i want to............ |