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Sunday, July 20, 2008, 6:37:00 PM
Sorry that i so long never updated my post. And here i am. Injury after injuries had put me out of soccer for about 2 weeks, yesterday went to have my training after recovered from injuries, but still sustaining slight injuries. My form was totally off, i totally don't know what i am doing, and i was unable to find back my form, need some time to train, and i left with about 2-3 weeks left to train, before i goes for the 'N' level. Last friday, NPCC having their service day, saw riduan sir under my block with his cadets, but didnt manage to say 'hi' to him as i was with my friend, we were going out and he was with his cadets. Talking about cadets, my sec 1s still looking good, while for the sec 2s, they were sort of been tore apart by the sec3s. As for the sec 3s, they ARE beyond any more hopes, even god wants to help them, i don't think they will make it, because of their attitude, which was totally gone, plus no respect and no discipline. My unit really needs something called "NCO's camp" for every year sec 2s, as it was prepared for preparing the sec 2s to become NCOs or called as Cadet Leaders in another words, but i dont know what to do now for my unit, it was liked it had been tore apart after my squad passed out, one look at the trainig or the attitude of the sec 3s answered you. Studies, Monday is 'N' level Mother Tongue Oral, and i was like stressed up for it. What am i supposed to do now???? Who will help me???? And Aug mid, i will be having prelims, with 'N' levels, all the way until Oct, it was like 2 months plus. I want to go Poly, gets a degree minimum. . . . . . . . Studies, NPCC, Soccer, Relationships. These four things, i was confused, which to choose first, which to let go, which to maintain. Studies - I will eventually completes it about 3-5 years time NPCC - I will have to leave the unit someday even thought i dont want to leave, no choice, once u reached a certain age, u really needs to put down your love for NPCC, and let it go. Soccer - Considering playing as part time, if not quit at the end of next year or after JC/Poly/ITE. Relationships - This is the only thing that i want to maintain it, i dont want to let it go, i want to hold it tightly, not to let go, or let it slip off, but if one day, it happens, i will just accept my fate, not fated to hold it tight enough. There is nothing which cant be solved, two brains is better than thinking by one brain, i dont want you to stress things up by yourself, i want to share it out with you, carry the burden with you, not to let you carrys it alone. Maybe i will leave you alone, not to disturb you, i let you go relax it out, when you are feeling much better, then u comes and finds me, i will be waiting, i dont want to lose you, it will be my regret. . . . . . . . . Good guy dies off early, while the bad guy dies off late?? I rather be a bad guy than the good guy, Some people might understand what i am saying. What happens if you one day finds out that you were left with one day, one week, one month, or even one year's time for you to live in this world????? What if i will be gone soon, who will shed a tear?? who will miss me?? who will miss my lame jokes??? NO one, i bet. |